Thursday, June 16, 2011

Words from Mister Rogers - Attempts at Pulling it Together

Through all of this blogging, cooking, and sharing I am still a single mom trying to figure out how to do this thing called parenting.  I struggle with the same things that any parent would I suppose, but the burden of solitude weighs heavy on my psyche.  I have wonderful support from my friends and family, but I still have my own personal struggles that I have to come to terms with.

One of my biggest worries has always been the question, "What am I going to be when I grow up?"  I still ask myself that and I'm thirty-nine.  I'm closer to having the answer than I've ever been, but I'm not quite there yet.  One of my biggest impediments, and greatest assets, is that I'm a dreamer.  I have always had lofty ideas as to what I want to be and how I want to do it.  But now, as a mom, I need to get my shit together tout de suite so that I can be an example to my daughter as to how to be confident and successful.  How am I supposed to do that for her if I can't do it for myself?

Frequently, I look to friends, books, and other random places for inspiration and direction.  Last night, while I was sitting in the middle of my living room floor desperately trying to keep it together, I looked up and saw a book on the shelf that made perfect sense:

The World According To Mister Rogers: Important Things To Remember 

This is an excerpt from the chapter, "The Challenges of Inner Discipline"

"What makes the difference between wishing and realizing our wishes? Lots of things, of course, but the main one, I think, is whether we link our wishes to our active work. It may take months or years, but it's far more likely to happen when we care so much that we'll work as hard as we can to make it happen. And when we're working toward the relation of our wishes, some of our greatest strengths come from the encouragement of people who care about us."

The good thing is my wishes are clearly defined.  Now I need to figure out how to link them with my active work.  I am happy to say that this blog, this project that I'm assigning myself, has become something more than just random rants and recipes, for me at least.  I am tickled that my friends and readers ask for more recipes and that those that they've attempted were simple and tasty (more to come, I promise!)
So for now, I'll think on Mister Rogers' advice, keep cooking,  and breathe deeply through the TERRIBLE TWOS.


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